Blythe's Wanderings

what if we didn't have...

What if we didn't have some of the trappings we humings have fallen victim to relying on...

I'm talking about the calendar... and clocks... and money...

I know there are very logical reasons and very convenient reasons to have these things... but seriously, they also have their definite down sides...

In my natural state, although I have been known as a very punctual huming, I think I'd be completely satisfied taking life as it comes withouth using a calendar or clock...

Yeah, I know it's really convenient for making appointments (for play and for work), but I can so imagine just being random... just wandering and bumping up against others... spending intense quality time with them in the "spur of the moment"... isn't that kind of what we do in relationships anyway?

Wouldn't it be better for some of us to eat as we are hungry instead of eating because the clock says it's time for lunch or dinner? I've already changed that... we eat dupper, combining dinner/lunch and supper/dinner...

And ::sigh:: money... oh, don't get me started!!! So much evil and inequality and strife and hatred caused by the use of this way too convenient system...

What if we all bartered what we had or could do for what we needed or wanted? What if we had to communicate through others to find the connections we needed? What if it were all about cooperation rather than competition? What if everyone had their survival needs met and were valued for the talents they had rather than the false structure of what some bodiless bunch implies is acceptable?

What if we all lived much more natural and unimpeded lives? Just wondering... more and more...

What if...

I'll get to why this came to me in a moment... but, I just asked a rhetorical of Kitty (at 5:15 am, shaking head!), "What if we create God in our own image, not the other way around?"

Seriously! This would explain so much... it would explain why folks like the Jorgé imagine a God who is patriarchal and authoritarian and a "white-bearded, wise, all-knowing old man" because that is a reflection of how he sees life, how he sees himself growing, it utilizes the filters through which he factors lifing ...

I see God as an energy source flowing through us all, a sort of group consciousness... a kind of "all of us came together to create a whole" and have grown from there... if you couple that with my last blog, that would explain the expanding as well... this energy thrives and grows on connection, therefore it would be growing as the population grows, as we build our energy sources... a symbiotic procreation...

This could also explain why I have a sense that all religions are a piece of the God puzzle... that each of us has a different way of filtering and factoring life and that it takes the diversity to see the whole picture of the Universe... that no one brain can possibly grasp it's entirety...

WOW!

Okay, now to explain the pathway to this assumptive (which I state here and now, that I may find fault with, or otherwise prove/disprove at a future time, lol... this is the fun stuff! for sure!!)

I did some energy work this week for the dear friend of a friend. My friend's friend had attempted suicide and was holding on by a thread. I asked my friend for her friend's name and for an animal with whom she finds connection. My friend did me one better not only by answering my questions but also sending along a photo of her friend.

That night, I created an amulet for her friend (something I use as the stand in/connector for the huming that I'm working with) and began my work. The first night, I could feel an intensely active connection as I communed back and forth with her... I could feel her exhaustion, but also her willingness to listen and share energies... It felt very strong, this connection.

The second night (I do this work when I'm in bed and dozing/in and out of lucidity), I felt the same strength of connection but a heightened sense of agitation... it built to something akin to chaos... I felt like she was still with me, sharing energy, and understanding what I was telling her but that she was losing the grounding... something wasn't "right". I told her that I needed to take a break, that she was deeply loved and that I'd be back.

I then set her amulet aside and left the room for about 45 minutes. When I came back and reconnected, there was a very deep sense of calm in her. The change in energy flowing between us was marked. In fact, the sense of calm was so deep and she felt so at peace that I went from a state of being wide awake to one of sleep in well less than five minutes—something that is rare for me, even when I haven't slept well for a couple of nights.

When I took my shower, I felt a theme pop strongly into my head... I don't know if it's connected to this woman's pain, but I would guess it might be at least part of it... It felt like she was there with me, talking in my head. I've felt this before, particularly when my mother-in-law was passing... she came to me when I was doing the dishes... I had no question that she was there with me. It was at that time that I assured her that I would "take care" of her husband and her son, and that she could go in peace.

Last night when I went to re-open the connection with my friend's friend, there was nothing. Like a dead phone line... zip, nada...

I am going to send my friend an email today asking if her friend passed at or around 3:45 Monday morning, our time. It would certainly explain the shift in energy I felt.

So, back to my rhetorical... what if we create God in our own image so that we can get the teensiest grasp of who/what that picture is? What if we image something that makes sense to us in our own language? What if we're all sensing the same thing, but we explain/describe in a different way because of how our brains work? What if we're simply using our own dictionaries to define, cuz that's what we have to work with? And does this explain why many of us get a better/stronger sense as we age, because we've continued to amass data that helps us to more clearly define?

Which then begs the question: How do you define God? And what does that reflect about who you are in your core being?

Yeah, who could go back to sleep after this! LOL! Good, groovy two-shoes morning, everyone! This is indeed the fun stuff!!!

With a vital noting: I mean in no way to diminish the passing of this lovely woman (if she has indeed passed, I may be totally misreading the lack of connection last night)... she was obviously in deep pain when she made her last choices for this lifetime... but, I feel like she made the ones she needed to make... I also know that she knew she was very loved and very deeply cared about... and, if I'm interpreting my communications with her correctly, she was deeply at peace when she left us... I honor both who she was, who she is becoming and her right to choose her own pathway as she journeys.

Wandering toward the light

QUALIFIER: Below are my own feelings and beliefs about certain aspects of science and religion, etc. They are not up for debate or dispute, as they are fully my opinions and what I have come to "know" at the ripe old age of nearly 49. You should feel free to agree, disagree, be offended, or humored, or any other emotive reaction you wish as I feel it is your God-given/natural right to do so. You just don't need to feel compelled to debate anything I say with me <bwg>! I don't do debate... for reasons I won't go into here.

Now... Wandering Toward the Light:

So... we're coming into the Winter Solstice and my mind is focusing somewhat on just what this means, to me and has meant to many generations of humings for thousands of years, as I am doing a Solstice Celebration with my friends at one of the churches we attend.

As always, my mind is wandering on several looped and circuitous pathways at once! One of these pathways has led me to linking some school we were watching the other day with my own personal beliefs about God (or how I am willing to define such a huge concept). We watched some science about the Universe which described the theories surrounding "dark matter" and "dark energy"... What my brain has done with what we watched and my own beliefs is to intertwine them, thusly:

My belief in God is strong and intuitively unshakeable, though continually being clarified and defined in my own huming terms. My feeling about the dark matter/dark energy explanations is that they're close, but still off with some of the theorizing. I have a major problem with the naming either of them "dark" because of the tendency we humings have in equating "dark" with bad or evil. But, I have not yet come up with better labels... I'm currently trying on "unseen viscous matter" and "self-sustaining energy source", and kinda like those...

So, how do these two fit together?

I believe (or intuit) that what we call God is more an energy flow that connects and makes up all existing things, living and otherwise. I believe that we are all part of One (that would be God, in my dictionary), and that we flow in and out of live material form/presence. I don't believe we cease to exist when our physical bodies die, for two reasons. I have witnessed what I would call proof of otherwise, and I am much too imaginative and fanciful for such a boring and dry (MY OPINION) description of "life".

I believe some of the proof for each of us being a part of a greater whole can be seen in Howard Gardiner's work relating to the different intelligences... I also believe it can be found in the vast diversity and variety of all visible matter...

I truly believe that when one gathers all of it together, we begin to see how it starts to form a whole picture. In my opinion, the greatest disservices that are done in huming existence are done when one mindset is revered over any others... when ONE way is shown to be right to the exclusion of others...

I believe that each religion has part of the answer... that each huming holds part of the light... that each species is part of the painting... that each and every thing that is (whether visible or palpable in huming terms or not) is a vital piece of the whole.

Enter the science... what if what they're labeling "dark matter" is what (we would normally label) "living things" when they die, or more accurately where living/non-living things go when they lose their "physical" presence? And, having lost their physical contraints, they become a flowing, viscous pooling of invisible matter. What if all that " material being" has simply entered into a different state of being, yet still exists? Couldn't "dark matter" be a reflection of all that has been that isn't currently taking "tangible matter" form?

What if God is the "dark energy" that flows through and between and surrounding all creation, sustaining all of us and itself? They say the Universe is expanding at a fairly decent rate of speed... does this correlate at all with the gaining populations on the Earth? And if not, couldn't there be growing populations on other planets or parts of the Universe? Just wondering... and wandering... and grinning ear to ear in mirthful play.

In my theoretical (though intuitively true :-) world, God isn't an entity with huming emotionals so much as a presence and energy source for and of life (in its fullest definition)—a wellspring, if you will. God is so vast and so intangible that the closest most huming minds can come to grasping it is to form huming-type descriptions and definitions that are easier to hold onto (not meaning to belittle this Greatness by using the label "it", rather trying not to assign a gender). While this huming tendency is wholly understandable to me, it's also ripe with the failing (again, my opinion!) of needing to stay put and within a comfortable realm of "known" rather than venturing out into a larger arena of vastness, learning and growth.

Well now... how's that for some seeds to chew on? And, yep! That's how my brain woke me up this morning... sure is fascinating to witness this puppy when it's in full wander, even though it often robs my body of the needs it has. Just one small drawback to the physical plane, I suppose... But, that's a whole other wander <bwg>...